First Entry

Hi there, this is my first entry, ever! For the first time in my life, I am about to embark on a journey that I feel documenting is worth while. My name is Misty, I've just turned 30 a little over a month ago. I'm 21 weeks pregnant (today!) with a precious baby boy, and a week ago today was diagnosed with stage 2 breast cancer. I want to remember my life as it is now, remember the next painstaking few months, and the beautiful life my wonderful husband and I are about to experience, so what better way than to begin documenting my daily adventures (whether they are good or bad). I'm an open book to those that know me (you probably know me too well) but pretty shy and reserved to those that I don't. This is a huge stretch for myself to put my real thoughts out for everyone to see, but I think that's just what I need to do for myself right now, experience the unknown and to just embrace it.

So, here we go.....
I found a lump in my right breast about 8 weeks ago. I thought surely, this was due to the pregnancy and that my OB would tell me that I was just a normal worried mother-to-be and that everything was normal. To my surprise, I was referred to get an ultrasound of my breast which led to a biopsy, which led to the words that I never dreamed would be uttered to me, "Misty, you have breast cancer." A moment that I will never, ever forget. One week later, I now have two oncologists working diligently to ensure not only is this tumor treated promptly, but that my baby is safe throughout the process. I begin 8 rounds of chemotherapy over a 16 week period on Wednesday, March 28th. After the chemo, my baby will be delivered, and the double-mastectomy, and reconstruction will begin.

I believe one day, I want to share this story with my son, or maybe there will be another young woman experiencing something similar to myself and find some sort of relief or comfort that she is not alone. I have found this comfort in reading Libby Ryder's blog, "Don't Waste Your Cancer." You should really check out her story, it's so touching and inspiring to see such a strong, young woman go through such a difficult situation with such grace. I hope to see myself in the same light after this is all said and done.

Tonight, I'm going to cut off my hair into a pixie cut. Something I never dreamt I do, nor do I want to do it. I know my psyche couldn't handle watching my long hair fall out in clumps in the shower or waking up to it on my pillow, so I'm going to try to take matters into my own hands (I guess I forgot to mention I'm a control freak). Wish me luck, and if you are reading this and you are my loved one, please be nice to me (fake it even if you hate it) ;0).

One of my biggest supporters gave me this card, so I have to post this ....my final thought for the day: Cancer is Stupid.
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