On Friday, July 20th at 1:35pm, my precious Lansing arrived safe and sound into the arms of Robert and I. Lansing weighed in at 6 lbs, 8 oz., 19 inches long. My life will never be the same, never did I know a happiness this grand. He was wide awake from his first moments and has been showering us with smiles and joy since.
The moments before Lansing's arrival Robert and I were just starring at each other, holding the one hand that I had free. The blue curtain kept us from seeing what the doctors were doing on the other side. The anaesthesiologist gave Robert the heads up that Lansing was about to make his first appearance so Robert stood up. I was anxiously starring at him and I could see the anxiety in Robert's face trying to make sure that I was okay and that his baby was going to be okay. Then I saw the look that I'll never forget, Robert's first glance of Lansing, we both had tearing rolling down our faces and the greatest sense of relief overwhelmed me. Robert then looked down and said, "He's perfect." After those first few minutes, it's blurry. The nurses took Lansing to clean him up and Robert was going back and forth between me and the baby. The first report back to me was, "He has my hands!" and the second, "Misty, he's adorable, the bluest eyes I've ever seen." After nearly 5 months of carrying a child and receiving treatment for the cancer I was diagnosed with at 20 weeks of my first pregnancy, I never dreamt in a million years it was possible for me to have a perfectly healthy baby. To see my baby for the first time and when I asked, is he okay, is everything okay? And to hear the nurses confirm that he was perfect, I think I almost died of relief. I think I've been holding my breath for 5 months without acknowledging it to anyone not even myself. But here I am with my son and not only is he perfect, he's ours and he's happy, peaceful even. Thank you for the millions of prayers, we felt them.
I've now officially been a mommy for 6 days. I feel like my life has been sprinkled with pixie dust because everything is just better. I never expected motherhood to be easy, but I never expected to enjoy every second of it the way that I do. Even the sleeplessness is tolerable, you still find yourself giggling at them at 5am when your eyes are crossed preparing his bottle, because he's so ridiculously adorable, funny even and I look forward to those 20 minutes of cuddling while he eats. Had I known this is what motherhood was like, I'd probably done this a long time ago. I want to savor every moment, breathe in every scent, watch every facial expression. I've fallen in love with Robert even more watching him care for us. He stepped in to his new role as a father so seamlessly. While in the hospital Robert took over and did everything, it was amazing to watch. Lansing looks so tiny in Robert's large hands, it's precious how gingerly Robert handles him like he could break. I'm so blessed for my boys. Now that I'm home it's been so nice to have all of us together, Robert, Lansing and my wonderful pups Charlie & Roxi.
We have lots of adjusting to do. Robert and I have been sleeping in the living room since coming home from the hospital on Monday. The pups sleep on the chair, Robert on the couch, me in my "sick chair" and Lansing in his nap nanny in his pack-n-play. I feel like we are camping but it's awesome, did I mention everything is awesome :0). Hopefully by next week, I'll be able to get around easier so I can go up and down the stairs more and introduce Lansing to his crib and mommy & daddy to our bed again. It's definitely something we'll laugh about later.
I have 6 days until I start back with chemo full force. I'm going to enjoy every second before then.
Love to all my family and friends. Thank you so much for visiting us in the hospital and since we've been home! It was soooo wonderful to have so many of our loved ones shower Lansing with kisses and hugs during his first few days on this earth. Here are some pictures from our hospital stay and some of Lansing's first experiences since leaving the hospital.
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| Sweet boy |
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| Proud Mommy |
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| Proud Daddy |
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| Happy baby |
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| Aunt Tessa |
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| Grammy Arnold |
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| Grammy Porter |
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| Uncle Wade & Justin |
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Porter Grandkids (Patrick, Henry, Abby & Lansing)
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| View from Hospital Room |
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| On our way home--Crossing bridge to KY 7.23.12 |
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1st doctor's appointment 7.25.12
Peace & Much Love,
Misty
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Congratulations on Lansing! He's gorgeous... and you're my Hero, Misty!
ReplyDeleteMisty, he is beautiful as are you. You are an inspiration to us all!!!
ReplyDeleteOh Misty. I just sigh everytime I see his perfect little face. He is an angel on earth! My heart is just bursting with happiness for you and Robert. Isn't it amazing to see your husband transform into a dad? Amazing! I love you all so much and can't wait to see you again soon and get some big time snuggles in with the lil guy :) :) :) Love you momma!
ReplyDeleteMisty, I love your little family! Reading this post makes me so happy for you- not only for you finally having your mind eased seeing your perfect creation, but for you experiencing being a mommy right now, and in anticipation of the role Lansing will play in your life and the happiness he will bring you. Just when you think you can't be any more in love, with both Robert and Lansing, a new day will come and you'll see your feelings grow even stronger than you ever thought possible. Keep the pictures coming....I just can't get enough of your sweet munchkin!!! I can't wait to meet him :)
ReplyDeleteOh, Misty, he's so beautiful and I'm so very happy for you and Robert! Congratulations!
ReplyDeletemisty so glad everything turned out awesome. he is so precious. Now back to the real world but its even more important now because you have someone else to fight for and stay strong for. Keep up the hard work and Congrats..
ReplyDeleteMisty, it so warms my heart and down to my toes lol to hear about your ease of mind at knowing that you and Robert created this perfect, peaceful, happy little being amidst so much adversity. I have read this blog entry a couple of times now, wanting to fully absorb the experiences. I've cried each time....tears of joy for the three of you, hon. You SO deserve this indescribable joy. You two are wonderful, thoughtful, responsible and caring parents. A great team whose deep love and commitment is apparent in all that you do. You've been great parents to Lansing from the beginning of your pregnancy and he is a reflection of that now full of joy, peace and contentedness. So happy for you, Misty....love you vey much and your beautiful family. Great Aunt Chris ;-) lol
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