Thursday, March 22, 2012

First Entry

Hi there, this is my first entry, ever! For the first time in my life, I am about to embark on a journey that I feel documenting is worth while. My name is Misty, I've just turned 30 a little over a month ago. I'm 21 weeks pregnant (today!) with a precious baby boy, and a week ago today was diagnosed with stage 2 breast cancer. I want to remember my life as it is now, remember the next painstaking few months, and the beautiful life my wonderful husband and I are about to experience, so what better way than to begin documenting my daily adventures (whether they are good or bad). I'm an open book to those that know me (you probably know me too well) but pretty shy and reserved to those that I don't. This is a huge stretch for myself to put my real thoughts out for everyone to see, but I think that's just what I need to do for myself right now, experience the unknown and to just embrace it.

So, here we go.....
I found a lump in my right breast about 8 weeks ago. I thought surely, this was due to the pregnancy and that my OB would tell me that I was just a normal worried mother-to-be and that everything was normal. To my surprise, I was referred to get an ultrasound of my breast which led to a biopsy, which led to the words that I never dreamed would be uttered to me, "Misty, you have breast cancer." A moment that I will never, ever forget. One week later, I now have two oncologists working diligently to ensure not only is this tumor treated promptly, but that my baby is safe throughout the process. I begin 8 rounds of chemotherapy over a 16 week period on Wednesday, March 28th. After the chemo, my baby will be delivered, and the double-mastectomy, and reconstruction will begin.

I believe one day, I want to share this story with my son, or maybe there will be another young woman experiencing something similar to myself and find some sort of relief or comfort that she is not alone. I have found this comfort in reading Libby Ryder's blog, "Don't Waste Your Cancer." You should really check out her story, it's so touching and inspiring to see such a strong, young woman go through such a difficult situation with such grace. I hope to see myself in the same light after this is all said and done.

Tonight, I'm going to cut off my hair into a pixie cut. Something I never dreamt I do, nor do I want to do it. I know my psyche couldn't handle watching my long hair fall out in clumps in the shower or waking up to it on my pillow, so I'm going to try to take matters into my own hands (I guess I forgot to mention I'm a control freak). Wish me luck, and if you are reading this and you are my loved one, please be nice to me (fake it even if you hate it) ;0).

One of my biggest supporters gave me this card, so I have to post this ....my final thought for the day: Cancer is Stupid.
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Peace & Love,
Misty
My husband Robert & I at a Christmas Party. We found out 5 days from this event that I was 5 weeks pregnant.

10 comments:

  1. !!! You have the prettiest face so who cares about the haircut! You are such an inspiration my love.. I cant wait to see soon enough and see ur belly!

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  2. I am so very proud of you sharing your story, as hard as it may be. Your story will touch so many people in ways that you cannot even imagine...thank you for sharing.
    I came back from TMMC today and I was very sad that you were not there to tell me how much you missed me. Well girl, I miss you beyond words.
    Please take a bit comfort in knowing that we are with you every minute of everyday, every step of the way.

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  3. Love you! I will be a faithful follower...so proud of you. Xoxo

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  4. praying for you. in this with you...we do not
    need to know each other personally to be able
    to understand the road you are embarking on.
    xoxo

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  5. I'm SO damn proud of you Misty Rae. We are all in your corner and you will NEVER be alone in this. You've just opened the flood gates to help so many others too. I really hope that you find writing to be a sort of theraputic outlet for you, and you should, because you are GOOD at it girlfriend. I love you so much!

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  6. Misty you are such a strong, brave & beautiful woman inside & out. I am very proud of you! Your blog will provide hope & inspiration to all who read it. You are going to beat this STUPID cancer! I am here for you if you need anything at all. Love you Misty!
    PS Olivia told me to tell you she loves her Misty very much!

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  7. Thanks for sharing the Cancer Vixen image. I now picture her when I'm meditating/praying for you and Jim. I already see you both as being healed but this image is helpful to a crass person like myself lol....In my mind we're kicking Cancer's ASS, though ;) Love ya Misty and good luck today <3

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  8. Misty...You are such a beautiful woman and such an inspiration to all who walk in your path! You are going to emerge from this weak moment a much stronger, and more beautiful lady! I, and all who know you, are blessed to share these moments with you...
    One day, your beautiful baby boy will thank you for your strength, love and perseverence and will bless you with many happy memories!
    Much peace and restful moments to you as you face these temporary challenges...just know you are in the hearts and prayers of many and are loved very, very much! : )

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  9. Oh, Misty, my little grand lil....I am stunned to hear your news. I hope for the best for you. You are such a sweet person. And the haircut is great!! Just cut mine all off too! Love you:)

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  10. We are praying and thinking of you often.
    -The TEMA Health Center

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Hi Friends, thank you so much for taking the time to leave a comment...I read each and every one of them and they mean so much to me. Have a fabulous day!! XO, Misty